Last Weekend
From birth.. Tasted the sweetness of life. Giggled through every moment. Swing all troubles away from the path and jump on every steps with cheat codes. Life is like a game for me. A game where you can cheat but the only thing is that it has no RESTART button. Never I begged to be born but I greatly appreciate the gift of God. HE let me taste every corner of the world. Tears were shed, sacrifices had been made, laughters were shared and never loose out the rings of love from everyone around me. Terribly sorry that the ray of guidance were blocked. Expect the least from someone and never more than could ever be produced. I thought I could always satisfy someone's need with the happiness that I have all the time. And I always thought I'm here, in this world, as a person with no sorrow. Living a path full of colours.
As I walk on my beautiful path, I sweep away all odds, hoping that it could never be seen anymore. I sweep everything under the carpet hoping that it will never appear anymore. But then, this is life. Things that you hid, will be found and the things that you push away will come back to you. Boomerangs are brought to this world, to let you know that things that you throw far away from you, hoping that it will never come back WILL always reach back to you no matter how hard you pray it won't. Karma do exist. And believe it or not, it's there right before you know it. This is not a speech. Just a dash of thoughts that's running in my head. And I type everything just once and never touch again just for perfection. Cause I believe, nothing in life is perfect. If you think that your path is made of thin ice, that every single step is so fragile, than I think you should be grateful. Cause that's how life should start. It's better than having a great life at first but leaving Earth with sorrows n hatred from the people around you.
I'm sorry for not being a good daughter, I'm sorry for not being a good sister, I'm sorry for not being a good friend. Never once in my life have i realised my wrong doings. Please don't embarrass yourself by calling me your friend, your daughter or your sister. When people ask you who am I, just say that I'm just some random person that you got to know. I'm ashamed at myself. A disgrace to a well brought up family. Every time someone approaches me, about my mistake, about my attitude, about what kind of person I am, it set me thinking, cracking my head, asking myself the same question over and over again. Why the hell am I like this? When will I ever change?? I thought it's easy to change for the better. Satisfying the people around you, satisfying yourself. But now I realised it's super hard. And you can count how much I said "I thought". And that phrase will always come after you've made the wrong step. Every single time. But every thing is too late. Things happened. You can imagine how worthless a friend I am, that a classmate of mine is starting to hate me in just 4 short months?? Even the closest friend of mine is getting sick and tired of me.
Life is short. And it's shorter than you think it is. As what I've went through now, though it's just a short one, I've learnt one important thing. It sounds easy but no. It's a little complicated. Never laugh too much. Cause it'll hunt you down as something you wouldn't wanna meet in life. Well that's all that I wanna say. Live life to it's fullest cause you won't know when you will ever hear "good morning" from someone you love. Thanks guys for every thing that you've given me. The sweet and charitable memories. It taught me a lot. And I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've made. If you wanna know, I have never been a good person all this while. Please forgive me. Especially a person that I called my new friend. Never meant to hurt or irritate you. You're the first person. And it's a blessing that I meet you NOW. I never thought it would be so hard to understand you. Sighs... Bye, guys. Assalamu'alaikum.
Next stop, ITE Dover.
As I walk on my beautiful path, I sweep away all odds, hoping that it could never be seen anymore. I sweep everything under the carpet hoping that it will never appear anymore. But then, this is life. Things that you hid, will be found and the things that you push away will come back to you. Boomerangs are brought to this world, to let you know that things that you throw far away from you, hoping that it will never come back WILL always reach back to you no matter how hard you pray it won't. Karma do exist. And believe it or not, it's there right before you know it. This is not a speech. Just a dash of thoughts that's running in my head. And I type everything just once and never touch again just for perfection. Cause I believe, nothing in life is perfect. If you think that your path is made of thin ice, that every single step is so fragile, than I think you should be grateful. Cause that's how life should start. It's better than having a great life at first but leaving Earth with sorrows n hatred from the people around you.
I'm sorry for not being a good daughter, I'm sorry for not being a good sister, I'm sorry for not being a good friend. Never once in my life have i realised my wrong doings. Please don't embarrass yourself by calling me your friend, your daughter or your sister. When people ask you who am I, just say that I'm just some random person that you got to know. I'm ashamed at myself. A disgrace to a well brought up family. Every time someone approaches me, about my mistake, about my attitude, about what kind of person I am, it set me thinking, cracking my head, asking myself the same question over and over again. Why the hell am I like this? When will I ever change?? I thought it's easy to change for the better. Satisfying the people around you, satisfying yourself. But now I realised it's super hard. And you can count how much I said "I thought". And that phrase will always come after you've made the wrong step. Every single time. But every thing is too late. Things happened. You can imagine how worthless a friend I am, that a classmate of mine is starting to hate me in just 4 short months?? Even the closest friend of mine is getting sick and tired of me.
Life is short. And it's shorter than you think it is. As what I've went through now, though it's just a short one, I've learnt one important thing. It sounds easy but no. It's a little complicated. Never laugh too much. Cause it'll hunt you down as something you wouldn't wanna meet in life. Well that's all that I wanna say. Live life to it's fullest cause you won't know when you will ever hear "good morning" from someone you love. Thanks guys for every thing that you've given me. The sweet and charitable memories. It taught me a lot. And I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've made. If you wanna know, I have never been a good person all this while. Please forgive me. Especially a person that I called my new friend. Never meant to hurt or irritate you. You're the first person. And it's a blessing that I meet you NOW. I never thought it would be so hard to understand you. Sighs... Bye, guys. Assalamu'alaikum.
Next stop, ITE Dover.
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